I think I am a bad adult

Seriously, I do. Is there any school that teaches you to budget properly or tells you whether your electricity meter reading is too high or how to cut down your bank charges. I hate money. I really do. I want to stop trying to fix people by buying them lovely gifts that I can't really afford. I want to know what to say to make someone feel better. I want someone to make me feel better. I wish I had bought a cheaper car or that petrol prices would go down or that I would get a higher paying job, close to where I live, in a field that I want to work in. And all I know is that I am 'adult' enough to know that wishes don't really come true.