Fun Fun Fun

So I went out last night with Helen, Rob and Barry and had such a nice time. It was cool just to chat about random stuff and laugh at the couple making out in the corner. It something I definitely need to do more often. Also on the topic of fun. I used my work incentive and bought clothes- jerseys and boots! And I felt Sooooooo guilty about it. I had to find reasons to excuse the fact that I used my own money to replace 10 year old jerseys.

So I have been thinking a lot about my idea of 'selfish' behaviour and in the spirit of enjoying my life I have decided to make a list of the things I am going to make more time for (selfish or not) so that I can say that I am enjoying life.

1.) Caramel vodka shots and drinking Amarula with Brian on the patio. I dont drink very much and when I do I often think of the price or my weight or the fact I got drunk 8 months ago. Which is STUPID. Having a shot on a thursday night or a glass of Amarula a week is healthy. So I am going to ENJOY it. I am not drinking because of social pressure or to drown my sorrows so there is no reason not to enjoy.
2.) Being a couch potato. I love being a couch potato. The term was created to describe me. And I do it all the time. But at the back of my head I am thinking that I should be cleaning up or visiting my parents or...I don't know. Doing something. Not anymore. From now on. When I decide to be lazy, I am going to enjoy it. The dishes will still be there later and one day when I am older, I might not have the opportunity to just relax.
3.) Afternoon naps- lately I haven't had my usual afternoon naps. I always feel that I should be doing something else and then end up lazing on the couch and not enjoying either. From now on, the occassional nap will be enjoyed.
4.)Spending money on myself. Okay, so I am not a scrooge and I am actually pretty generous when it comes to buying gifts for people. But in my head, it is only okay to spend money on other people. If I spend money on myself then I feel like I am wasting it, being irresponsible and selfish. Although one of the traits I like about myself is generousity, I have decided on the few ocassions that I do spend money on myself to enjoy the outcome. The real waste is not to.
5.) My car. I feel so guilty about my new car. I am worried about the extra money, that I have a car and my brother doesn't that I can afford a car when most of SA cant. Guilty. Guilty. Guilty. Which is silly. I need to enjoy my car. In the spirit of this, I have named her Bella and I love her lots.

Look how pretty she is (although this is not the actual Bella- its pretty similar, just no sea in the background).
6.) My salary- what an arb thing to feel guilty about, hey? And its not that huge.
7.) The fact that I have handed my masters in. Okay, I don't feel guilty about this one. But I am definitely not enjoying it. Why? Because I don't feel it was good enough. But after 4 years and 199 pages, it was the best it was going to get. So this afternoon I am going home and doing NOTHING to celebrate the fact that I can go home and do nothing!

So anyway, thats my list for today. If there are any strange people that don't enjoy things because of guilt or worry: I suggest you dedicate this weekend to just having fun, fun and more fun!